I wish you knew..

I don't why, you say goodbye, you let me go so fast as you didn't need me anymore..
You've changed, you are not the one I met two years ago.
The one who always by my side when I am down, and always support me whenever I need.
if you just remember the time we spent together.
the moment we shared.
how I teach you to do this and to do that, so everyone will have respect on you, so you won't be shy anymore, so I can proudly hold your hand and say out loud to other people who stared suspiciously at us "yes, this is my man!"
I didn't mean that I want to change your life and I hate your look.
I love you just the way you are!
I just want to make you feel better :) because I love you, I don't want you feel bad of yourself, and I want you to feel comfort when we were walking together dear..

when I said about my feeling about your company, it offended your self-esteem maybe.
but it just because I'm not feel comfortable about it.
you said I didn't support you on your job, that's make me down and upset.
I wish you knew, I'm always trying to support you, I try to do my best when you ask for my help..

these two years just gone by without any memories?
you just left me here, with all the memories, and let yourself forget it at all.
maybe easier for you because you were not here, you were not living by the memories, you were not on the same place where we spent our time together..
so you'll just forget me as the other thing in your life, maybe even you hate to make it easier..
but for me? it needs thousands time effort for me try to move on on my life.
I cannot hate you, the feeling that I have for you will always remain the same, but maybe in different way now.
like you always said, you love me so much, always and forever..
maybe I didn't saying those sentence everyday, but it remains in my heart, in every beat of my heart, it didn't have to be said, but deep inside it graven on my heart.
although you hate me, although you have hurt me, although you have hurt my family..
I trust you that you love me so much, but why you've changed so much?
you were not the same person who make me fall in love.
fool me, I give all my heart and my love for you.
I even love you more that I love myself, that's why even you hurt me so many times I always forgive you, why you cannot do the same thing for me?
when I lost you, it feels like I lost everything.
and I learn from that mistakes to my next step, and next relationship.

I try to put my heart into one piece again after it broke.
I try to move on, but our memories will always be in my heart :)

goodbye is the saddest word that I want to say but I have to..
Welcome new life, please meet the new me :)