I'm not really in the good mood, I don't why I felt so sad recently, and a lil bit stress. Yeah, felt that I lost him and miss him so much, although we just met last month (only 4 days, yeah 4 days!!). Tell me how I'm not supposed to feel that I lost him much if days ago we met almost 16 hours, just separated by our time to sleep! Then right now we had to meet once every 3 months :( so sad..
Can't describe how I feel, and don't ask how I feel, believe me you don't wanna listen it, hahaha..
Honestly I never thought that I would like to have some long distance relationship like I do now, but I have no choice, it's just like you have to eat the medicine, you have to do it tough you didn't like it. The words were still in my head, spinning around, he said "I got to go back to my hometown this weekend". Yeah we're just shocked, both of us, coz we're still have a great planning with him here by my side before we heard that news :(
But yeah, once again, man's planning God's deciding, and for this time, I hate the decision. The most difficult thing I tried to face is I don't know when will he be back :( could you imagine that?? But that's the reality babe! You like it or not..
So here we are, having long distance relationship that should be meet every 20 days but because some reasons, recently we just met every 3 months, no dating in the weeekend, no watching movies, no 'karaoke' and no fun in the weekend :(
And I had to get used to the reality that I had to face all problems and all situations here by myself.
Though we're still communicate by phone but still it's different with if we're having some nice conversation every dinner like we used to do.. Sometimes we just talk for half an hour in one day, why? because he's very busy in the office, go home late, then when he called me, I was already sleepy and suddenly oversleep after having chit-chat not more than 10 minutes!
I'm tired also, coz no one take me home like he used to, oh God, if I keep mentioning everything when I had him here and comparing when he's not here, I could spend all night long, hahaha..
That's why I missed him so much, coz it's just like losing one of my bone, it feels that something's wrong with me, poor me huh..
But I know all things he had done is just for our future :) that's the only reason I could smile now. Every story has an end and I've been waiting for my happy ending :) (hope so, amin)
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